Bergen County Special Services

To the staff of the NOVA and Bergen Technical school in Paramus,

I'm not the liar. You know it is true. Yet you take the side of some miserable ***. Well, I guess it reflects the true person you are on the inside. You are just the same. No wonder I never had any respect for you. You think you know me, you think you understand, you think i'm making all these excuses up just to get out of trouble, that i'm just the same as you're other students. Well guess what. I'm not. I never was and never will be. You can not make me be like them. I refuse. *** you. You can give me all the detentions you want, you can give me all the punishments you want, you can send letters to my parents if you want. It will never change anything. Ever. Because you will never understand me. AT all. All I see when I look at you, is a group of fools, lazy and ***.It disgusts me that any of you think that you can make a difference in my life at all. Oh excuse me I believe you have made a point in my life. You made me miserable, hated, out casted, judged, blamed and mad even a joke out of me. No more.You think you're counseling has help me? you made me detest you every single day in my life here, you made me wish to not be here, you have made me to hate even waking up in the morning. Because I know that if I wake up, i will have to come here. Even on weekends, I am depressed and pissed off, knowing that I have to return to this *** hole.

I know that you do not care. None of you *** do. You never did to begin with. Don't give me all that *** that you did, that i'm being childish and ***, that I should learn from myself, that you can help if i go to you. Well guess what. It never really has worked. I'm done having to learn from my mistakes. How about you ***'s learn from you'rs? I have even learned that if i try to explain, you wouldn't care because you just have no tolerance for me. I see it now.

Thank you for making me miserable. Because that's the only thing you all ever did.